Had my fifth or sixth ( I forget) audition for television's premiere Mafia-themed drama. They keep calling me in, so I keep going. It's kind of a goof at this point. That's not to say I'm not professional... I always do my best at every audition I go on. It's just that I was very conflicted about even being seen for this show, for reasons I've gone into before in this very blog. But for some reason, I don't really care now. It's kind of like working up the courage to walk into the adult section of a video store. Once you realize it's just shelves of empty boxes, it's really not that big a deal. Not that I've ever been in one of those stores, but I read other blogs where people talk about these things.

In fact, I think I audition better when I don't care that much. I think I'm more relaxed and in touch with my gut, as opposed to being all "in my head" and second-guessing what I think they want. Today, the casting person told me to improvise some dialogue as though I was at a party. Then she told me exactly what to say. Of course, I was free to ad lib; as long as I said the very specific things she listed. Fun.

But not as fun as the last auditon for this show, where my line (singular) was "What the fuck!"

Thank God it's going off the air this season. I can't endure these ridiculous demands on my gifts.